desire

What do you want?

Those 4 words hold so much power. 

Read them again. 

What do you want? 

Close your eyes. 

Take a deep breath. 

What do you want? 

What are you tolerating in your life right now? What are you taking for granted? What lights you up inside? What makes you come alive? What makes time stop and pure joy fill your spirit?

Today marks not only the beginning of a new year, but also a new decade! 

Another year under our belts, another decade down. 

Let’s take a trip down memory lane. 

How is your life different today from this time last year? From this time 10 years ago? How have you grown? How have you changed? What have you created? What have you let go of? What have you embraced? 

I bet if you sat down and took inventory of all the things, you’d be blown away at what you’ve overcome, what you’ve experienced, what you’ve accomplished. Sometimes, we get so focused on the future that we forget to reflect and look back at where we’ve come from. Or even worse, we look back and find ourselves lacking.

I wanted to lose 20 pounds last year and here I sit, the same number on the scale (or maybe an even higher one), wearing the same sized clothing, feeling the same self-loathing towards my body. Why can’t I just stop eating and get moving? I will always be fat and unhappy. Pass the Oreos, please.

I was sure that 2019 would be the year I’d meet my person, and I’m still single. What is wrong with me?! Will I ever find love? Why does it keep happening for everyone else?! I want to be excited for my friends, but I just can’t take another engagement or pregnancy announcement. It’s MY turn. Why do I keep getting passed over?! This feels too hard, too much work. Maybe I’m meant to be a nun...

I didn’t get that promotion at work, and I barely got a 1% raise last year. There go all my hopes and dreams for the future, retirement, travel, right down the drain. I can’t seem to get out of this job though-- the benefits are just too good! But I need to make more money and don’t even know where to start.

I know I’m guilty of it, too. Enrolling myself in a victim’s story, a story where I am stuck and unable to get myself out of a rut. The stories we tell ourselves are like our childhood bedtime stories-- we’re familiar with them, intimately familiar. We know the twists and turns and the way the story plays out every time, and yet, we feel powerless to break free!

What if I told you that you CAN break free of the stories that don’t serve you? What if you hold within you the power to create WHATEVER YOU WANT? 

Now take another deep breath and think about the person you want to be in 365 days. Really conjure her up. Who is she? What is she like? How is she different from you today? What choices might you have to make over the next 365 days to become her? Write down your thoughts. What if 2020 was the year you decided to stop talking/complaining/venting/day-dreaming and finally make it happen?!

Next week, we’ll dive into what it looks like to begin CREATING that vision for yourself. Stay tuned.

In the meantime, I’d love to hear from you! Post a comment, shoot me an email--I’d love to hear what this experience was like for you!